Why am I writing this blog?

Euclid (Cleveland), Ohio, United States
Here I share the amazing spiritual journey I began on July 19, 2007. I received the diagnosis of a golf-ball-sized tumor on top of the left parietal lobe (motor functions) of my brain. I had severe symptoms all up and down the right side of my body and had received an MRI scan of my brain. In August 2007, I learned that my diagnosis was a Glioblastoma Multiforme (GBM). This is a common form of fast-growing brain cancer with a challenging prognosis. That's the external story about that moment in time. In the spiritual world I found (actually more like it found me) what I came to call the Fact-Based Spirit-Guided Path, and I began an amazing journey. After October of 2008, I lost the use of my right arm, and in early 2009, my cognitive abilities were struggling, and treatment options ended. My wife, Susanne, then began doing most of the blog postings, with my review and input whenever possible. I continued to apply the Fact-Based Spirit-Guided Path as the adventure continued. My soul then flew to the Kingdom of God on July 1, 2009. Thanks for your interest in my journey. Craig

Susanne's Perspective

During this entire journey, my wife, Susanne, had an entirely different kind of experience. Initially she added comments to some of my posts describing her experience of the moments I discussed and offerred perspectives on our relationship. In the latter stage of this journey, she is writing the blog, as I am no longer able to do so. I am truly delighted that she is doing so. Susanne and I work together as marriage educators/relationship coaches and she has written many books on preparing for and strengthening marriages so you can count on her comments to be insightful and poignant.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Still Back on Track: June 1 to 22

On June 1, we participated in a fundraising walk for The Gathering Place. I began using my cane again that day because of challenges with weakness and numbness in the right hip, leg and foot. These symptoms seemed to have been made worse by the Dilantin (anti-seizure drug) the doctor had put me on May 30th. Friends had to support me on the last of the mile to get me through it. And, my nephew and then a neighbor teen cut my lawn the last two times. I’ve improved quite a bit since that day, but I’m still using my cane on uneven surfaces and for longer walking for some extra support.

I saw the chiropractor on June 3rd to have my atlas bone placement adjusted. It was out of place, and was the last time I had the seizure/spasming as well. Twisting of the dura layer of the brain, which likely occurs when this bone is twisted, may be a contributing factor. So, I’ll plan to see him more regularly. Thankfully, as the brief dose of Dilantin wore off, I did not have any resumption of spasms.

I completed the 4th round of chemotherapy on June 6 without incident and was able to work every day that week, unlike previous rounds where by Thursday or Friday I was too tired to function much at all. I was able to participate in the Thursday Toastmasters meeting where Susanne was a speaker and the Friday meditation session that Susanne led. Previously I would not have been able to do so. Both were wonderful and on the topic of happiness, based on all the reading and working she has been doing on the subject, which is the focus of the new book we just published, Happy at Home, Happy at Work. On Saturday and part of the day Sunday I was very tired from the chemo, but again, it was not as severe.

On the 11th, Susanne and I attended a session at the Cleveland Institute of Music consisting of music and research presented by Dr. Kamal Chemali , a Cleveland Clinic neurologist, on how different types of music improve brain functioning. The acoustics in the new Mixon Hall there were outstanding, and it was helpful to understand how I can use music to assist me in my healing. The Gathering Place spirituality group session this month was on music, too, and we identified a couple of artists to add to our collection.

In spite of the fatigue, I’m happy to report that I hit a new record of working more than 30 hours the week of June 16! Due to the ongoing right leg problems, I have now added 2 supplements to my daily routine after checking on their positive match with my body with one of our alternative practitioners:

1. Melatonin: My son had good results from using this during his brain cancer treatment to lessen chemo side effects, and my sister and another alternative practitioner recommended it as an effective anti-oxidant that can penetrate the blood brain barrier.

2. Boswellia: After a friend suggested I consider taking this supplement, I found some research data indicating a potential for reduction in swelling associated with Glioblastoma. I also found a Phase II Clinical Trial at the Cleveland Clinic designed to confirm this earlier research. My hope is that the Boswellia will reduce the brain swelling which shows on my MRI’s, and that the reduction will lead to improvement in my leg symptoms. Boswellia has been used for centuries to treat joint swelling.

My Spirit-Guided interpretation of the facts of the last month is that the brain rearranging, discussed in the post of May 23 to 30, is settling down, perhaps with the aid of the new supplements. My strength seems to be improving, and the neurological symptoms in my right leg seem to be decreasing. My fatigue level is still relatively high, but I attribute that to the chemotherapy and the high level of anti-seizure medication that the neurologist has me on.

A major triumph during this time period was that I was well enough to travel to North Carolina to present our first marriage enrichment workshop in 14 months! YEAH! We used a wheelchair in the airport to conserve my energy and help with the distances. I wasn’t able to participate for all of the weekend (the hosts had made arrangements for me to have private space to nap when I needed), but I was there for most sessions and led a couple of my favorite ones. It sure felt good to get back into this work with my dear wife, Susanne.

Oh, and the dentist says I have no cavities!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

The rest of the story…

This period has seemed very intense. Lots of emotional ups and downs with Craig, and attempting to work almost full-time throughout.

I wasn’t at all sure about Craig participating in the Gathering Place walk, but he insisted. It was one of those moments where I was clear it was good for his mental and emotional health. But, it sure seemed to be a bad idea for his physical health. It was very, very hard walking behind him seeing friends holding him up so he could finish the last stretch.

I prepared for my speech and meditation sessions on faith and prayer. I knew that the Dilantin was wearing off during that period and if there were going to be seizures, it was those two days. Had Craig not been well enough to go, I would not have felt it wise to leave him home alone. It was not my best speech under the circumstances, but it was okay, and it accomplished a major goal. I finally completed my Competent Communicator manual/award! And, I’ve also completed my year as Vice President of Education for the Toastmasters group. Craig and I are now done as officers…a stress reliever.

It feels so wonderful to complete a new book. It has been my norm to do two a year, and this is the first since our cartoon book in May 2007. We have reviewed the finances for Marriage Transformation and feel in order to keep it going, we need an influx of money. So, Happy at Home, Happy at Work is primarily designed for corporate sales, not retail (although it will be available retail). This will be a new an interesting challenge…how to sell to companies (I’ve been taking a course). However, it’s also a new stress in life! We are doing outreach to friends and colleagues asking others to help with making company contacts…that will help.

It also felt great to do the engaged and married couples workshop. Workshops always trigger me to develop new material to field test. Since it had been so long since doing a workshop, and this one had 12 content hours, there was a lot of prep work to do. But, it was well received, and a blessing to have Craig with me. The airport was exhausting…challenges with check-in because our workshop hosts had booked the ticket under my last name, not Craig’s, and so we ended up 30 minutes before the flight having to buy a new ticket for him. And, no attendant on the return for the wheelchair, so I pushed him through two terminals.

Craig’s head is still taking daily care…I’m applying Bacitracin twice a day to avoid infection recurring. However, I have added applications of Tea Tree Oil/Vitamin E, and there have been no new blisters since May 24th. It finally seems to be healing. I’m still suspicious whether the fluid leaking out of the hole/cyst in his brain was what has caused his head to break open and leak since December. No one has come up with any other good explanation!

I saw the same alternative practitioner as Craig did. He’s saying overall I’m doing well, but struggling at times with stress, depression, and anger (hence my quest to better understand happiness!). I had lunch with a good friend on Friday, which helped, and I’ll get back to managing my stress level more closely. I began to get a migraine today, which is always an indication of stress. I’m going to have to remember that in Craig’s words, “I can’t do everything!” And life is always simply one day at a time.

Oh, and I had no cavities either!

Anonymous said...

Yea for no cavities!...... and all the rest.

Love, Judy