I reminded Craig yesterday and today about our Bahá’í wedding vow, “We will all, verily, abide by the Will of God.” In fact, we sang it together today (as we did at our wedding) so I would be clear that he heard it. I have asked him to “go with the flow” and not try to agitate for or force his ending here to go at any other pace but what God wills.
My Dad sent me an email this week that included the phrase “in intimate touch with the dying process”. That became the subject of my artwork yesterday with the hospice art therapist. I feel so privileged to be accompanying Craig in this process. The love in his room is palpable. Craig’s artwork yesterday was all about locks and keys. We think he’s searching for a way to unlock the door to the Kingdom of Heaven.
Today Craig has been accompanied by his daughter Michelle, who just arrived for the weekend. For the first time in their lives, they painted together this afternoon. Of Craig’s two paintings, one he described as including many angels gathered together singing. The other was of traveling from a wide place through a narrowing passageway and out to an open “plaza” at the other end. He said he was in the middle, but wants to be at the end.
We got an email yesterday from our dear friend Holly. She said, “every breath is an opportunity for awareness of breathing in the Holy...” So we breathe in and out each day and experience the sacred. She stopped by this evening and brought us dinner, so we breathed together!
The hospice nurse yesterday said Craig has lost more lung capacity since Wednesday, but his heart rate was back to normal. The steroid levels continue to drop. All else seems stable at the moment.
Love,
Susanne
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This is so very beautiful, Susanne! You are a wonderful, loving friend and wife!! Craig is so blessed to have you by his side.
Love,
Sylvia
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